'the meaning of love is so abstract nobody knows the true definition of it. everyone has his or her own interpretations. all's not lost, it's only time that is lost. i'm sure you'll find someone who truly treasures you. :)'

'the hardest part is to explain to yourself :it's over. when you handle it then there's hope to move on..'

Remember the times when you got really heart broken?
When you want to get up but you couldn't?
When you want to forget and you couldn't?
when you know you gotta move on you couldn't.

Btw,
papers today aren't as tough as i thought ;)

SPM PLEASE LOVE ME WITH ALL YOUR HEART.

I'll love you too.

Goodluck everyone.

15days to full freedom.

And sometimes it hurts when you say you're sorry and stuff.

Btw, i really miss my straight hair ;(
And, miss MM too ;(
MISS DARL THE MOST ;(

I wanna wake up where you are.

lelove.

Friday,
watched 2012. awesome? not really. But was okay. Happy ending though ;)
It does make people wonder what if 2012 is really true? what if the world is really coming to an end? what would you do? are you afraid? hahaaa.. i already told my baby Darl that he will have to marry me if the world really ends x) only if he remembers, doubt ;)
Had dinner at Kim Gary, the usual place. After that, bought a shirt from Kitschen, which i left it at Darl's house that night grr. Headed to AC then. Overnight at Darl's house with perkyang & siching. Slept at 4am ;)

Saturday,
perkyang & siching left before Darl wake up from bed. He is such a big baby ;( He took me home in the evening. Nobody was home at first, i watched Tv alone quite awhile, almost felt asleep. But then parents came back. I showered, and we went out for dinner at uncle Alvin's house ;) steamboat. Loads of seafood was served ;) was happy with it. All of them are mom and dad's really old & good friends, i think i know them too. After dinner, dad offered me whiskey lmao ;) haha, rare enough. They had brandy, whiskey, red wine and some korean wine there, of course i had them all ;) heh. Got home at 3 am.

Sunday,
pyramid again, with mom ;) objective was to shop. Had dinner at Bubba Gump. Bought a pants at Kitschen again ;) I had a tattoo on my back now x) wee.
Ohhh Uncle and aunt came for a visit today =] had dinner again with them. I had two dinners today xD hah.

Two days more to spm ;) goodluck friends.

Night Darl ;)

BEFORE

VS

AFTER.

yuck, i regretted la okayy ;(

I PERMED MY HAIR !

I have short fringe and curled hair now, so not me. Totally new for me, 'cause I've never see myself with curled hair. Didnt know what went through my mind actually. It only looks nice when I tie it all up, my hair is still too short for it. Gonna wait til it gets longer ;)

OH YEAA, TO EVON ;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!

EVON THE CUTIE ;)

bffs ♥

love love love you ;)

May our friendship last forever
♥

Phewww... finally done with editing and adding things to my blog. It's 2.34am. I'm tired, really. My eyes are heavy. I have school tomorrow, gosh.

I woke up this afternoon, it was around 2pm i guess.

The first thing i do was goin' on9. The second goes to brushing and cleaning.

I turned on the Tv later on, watched 'G to Gents'.. while i'm half way watching, Glenn called, but i know it was darl's idea. DUHH ;) because he THOUGHT he made me unhappy last night, so he was tyring to make it up to me by calling and driving me out to Asia cafe. I knew i was goin' to be bored somehow, but.. oh well he is trying. I'm still very happy to see him. He is still really sick, poor baby i pity him ;(

1. Reached there around 4pm, settled down and had tea.


2. FTZ for Dota again, there's when i'm starting to get boreddddd ;) i was only playing facebook.


3. An hour later, went upstairs to look for friends.


4. When we were planning to go back and went downstairs, I accidentally bumped into one of my ex-boyfriend. I call that unfortunate ;)


5. We changed our plan, and went upstairs once again. Darl played pool awhile. We were gonna have dinner with Glenn's mom.


6. I forgot what time it was, we had steamboat for dinner. It was nice ;)


7. After that, i went home with Darl and left Glenn and his mom.


8. I was worrying bout my Facebook-Cafe world, b'cause i knew my food was spoiling ;(


9. I left Darl at 1030pm. I went home.


10. Now, here I am.

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I'm so sleepy right now, i'm goin' to bed.

Starting to miss my Darl already ;) Good night people.

OH btw, i made up my mind, that I'm not goin' to my schools' Prom Night.
But I'm goin' to Darl's Prom, hopefully ;)

Yesterday was our anniversary, and... we just argued.

what the heck right. well it was a small issue, really. nothing big. Just misunderstanding and attitude problem + the mood swing wasn't right at all. I admit it was my fault. I just done my pms, but sceptically i'm still not in the mood. Not bout him, not bout anything. Just me, myself and I. You know girls right? pffft. we always have our own world.

I got back home arnd 10pm just now from pyramid. Had dinner at sakae, did some shopping. Owh i bought a shirt from Jaspal. *basically b'cause it's barbie ;) wanted to do a tattoo on my back, but was in a hurry and i don't know why is it. well, anyone wanna join me? ;) nvm ping i'll call you hahaa x) just want a companion not forcing you to do with me lmao.

Had a small argument with dad. Which makes my bad mood even worse. And just because i forgot to turn on that dumb Tv hhmph. Climacteric, men version.

Skipping school tomorrow again.

Countdown 10 more days til the battle begins.

haha, like i cared.

nights peeps, hearts.

Although, you're like ubi kayu sucked at comforting while i'm crying, i still love you as much as always ;)

You were the one, came by my side when I've nobody but myself. I always remember that moment, because you were obsessed with me ;)

I was hopeless months ago, really, only bout love life of course. I got heart broken, somehow it was really hurtful at that very moment. Though i thought it was worth it to let things go, and yes it worth everything even to get my own life back to normal. But somehow, again, i felt like i got abandoned. I made a huge mistake, if you're my friend you would know what I'm talking bout. It was a big mistake. 7 months, you imagine, you carried that mistake for 7 months and you didn't do anything bout it but to let it carry on. I felt guilt. I regretted. My heart got scattered all over.

But him, put them all back together again.

Me and him. Our first met wasn't romantic. It was not a love at first sight moment. It was simple. I knew him at a karaoke room, and I was invited over by a good friend of mine. I didn't know anyone there. We started talking and stuff, i ninja-ed his beer and i still remember ;p After that outing later on, we started msging each other, phone calls at night, hanging out once or twice in a week. It was normal.

And something happened in between. Another guy was involved, he takes me out almost every night, treats me so good that i couldn't resist. people arnd me could see that he is only trying to take advantages from me, they warned me. I didn't listen. Because they were right bout me. All i was thinking bout is fun, late nights outing. I didn't care much people arnd me. Until i was too late to realise everything. He loved the other girl. and i know it all along. I was selfish and foolish. So, i came to realisation and break everything off with him. he became just a mist to me, a memory that i would rather forget. I told my first guy bout everything he did to me. Amazingly he listened to what i have to say, comfort me and advised me. Because at that moment, he was still crazy bout me. I choose to ignore whenever he try to confess. I wasn't ready.

He was so dedicated, so kind and gentle, and amazingly patient with me. And my love for him started with a kiss, a deep one. Maybe i didn't have the feeling that he didn't want it, i was aggressive. That time i know, i needed him. My feelings intensified. He was a boy that i was deeply in like with. Things got better as the days counted. Our feelings got stronger by then. Hard to admit, we were like a bond. Inseparable. But after all i never had the guts to tell him how i really felt all those times. But eventually i came to realise, all those complicated feelings i had for him could be express through simple words, which is I Love You. It explains it all. I was madly and deeply in love with him.

Eventually after months and days, we got official. Now.
(it's not the whole story, 'cause i skipped parts. well, the point is we are happily ever after.)

And before the time hits 12,

I gotta say,

HAPPY 1ST ANNIVERSARY, sweetie ;')