♥ ❝Bitter-Sweet

花花世界

2011-07-29T15:50:00.002+08:00

嗯，还好吧。好久没用华语打 blog 了。感觉还不错。有时我还真害怕有天我会忘了怎么写华语。所以，时不时还会练习下。呵。

据说；
两个相爱的人最初走在一起的时候，
对方为自己做一件很小的事情，我们也会很感动。
后来，对方要做很多的事情，我们才会感动。
再后来，对方要付出更多更多，我们才肯感动。

直到对方不愿再对另一方付出，
我们才知道原来对方已经付出了很多。。。

女朋友生气要哄她，
男朋友生气要忍他；

女朋友吃醋要抱她，
男朋友吃醋要吻他；
...............
女朋友哭了要逗她，
男朋友哭了要陪他；

女朋友累了要背她，
男朋友累了要扶他；

女朋友错了要原谅，
男朋友错了要体谅；

女朋友生日要记得，
男朋友生日要懂得。

男人只和自己喜欢的女人谈恋爱，却可以和任何女人上床；
女人只和自己喜欢的男人上床，却可以和任何男人谈恋爱.

感情不需要诺言、期限与条件。
它只需要两个人：一个能够信任的人，与一个愿意理解的人

很多时候男人会不经意的忽略他们带给女人的伤害，我们女人需要做的就是要学会忽视这些无意伤害，以免以后累计成了遍体鳞伤。

有人说，男人喜欢愚蠢的女人，聪明的女人男人不喜欢。因为如果女人聪明，就会让男人看起来得的就不就小聪明而已。

很多男人都喜欢装聪明，因为输不起。而女人喜欢装蠢，因为知道自己的男人输不起。而我，最讨厌装聪明的男人。

There's this thing, ppl call it faith.

2011-05-25T00:41:00.001+08:00

somehow i love this picture, maybe because I look pretty in it ^^V lol.

It's been like 2 months I didn't touch my blog, I feel it's time to blow off all the dust *blowww~ huuuuu.

Okay, Hi. I have been staying at home for the past 3 weeks, well literally. All i did was drinking, out late(sometimes).This is the last week of holiday. kinda glad actually, so bored of boredom and having nothing to do. Oh yea, took my undang test last thursday, and I failed. well obviously cause i didn't study and someone refused to teach me ;( hmph. Anyway, hmm... I actually do not have much things to update, nothing much happened, or maybe I just don't remember anything. okay, whatever.

Watched Pirate of the Caribbean ,not bad. Love those mermaids ♥ . Fast5 was... okay, i guess. Thor, hmm... not the type of movie I would go for. whatelse? hmm... ahh forget it lah.

Apparently I'm still pretty much awake, doubt that I can sleep anytime soon. Been sleeping arnd 4am these few days, always stone in front of the comp for few hours, tired dy only sleep. Then next day wake up arnd 3-4pm. Lol, lifeless much?

ahhhhhh June is coming very soon, nooo.. means my birthday is getting nearer nooo.. I'm not ready too be ~~Officially 19~~ yet. Still like to tell people that I'm 18 every now and then. Ishh. What happens when I'm 20?

Gonna go watch tv now. so yeaaaaa.. ciao ppl. ஜ۩۞۩ஜ═══════════════════╗ 　　

2011-03-31T01:16:00.001+08:00

Isit still my fault? Am I to be blamed? Our distance is getting further instead of closer. are we too different? because that's what I feel now. It's starting to show that.. we come from two different world.

2011-03-29T13:37:00.004+08:00

you implied that girls are dogs because you said ; " if you have to be reminded always(how much i love you), then you're like a dog right?" fyi, most girls like to be reminded for those kinda stuff. asshole.

so now i'm not allow to have facebook freedom, because i cannot post anything I want, I hope you wont stop me from blogging too. pffffft.,

I never knew that living in my own world would be a wrong thing to do. and I'm not suppose to live in my teenage dream. I'm still angry over the prom thing which is so so so last year and I doubt that I'll ever get over it. SO WHAT , your very "good" friends fucked you upside down because your precious girlfriend dont know how to present herself? or don't know how to talk? talk too much? exposed too much of her true self? or cannot accept she is so true that you believed that is fake? what more? so what theyre fucking older than me, and I think perhaps they forgot bout how young ~~innocent~~ girls are as they always look for sluts. maybe? I don't care if you older than me, still you are fucking childish for your age. you think money can make you king. you think consuming alcohol / drugs(IDK) can make you feel good bout yourself, oh please. Other ppl that are sober will still be able to see your true colours. your true UGLY colours. I don't care if I never talk to you anymore. because you will be that little dirt that pollutes my pretty wonderful world.

YOU. don't scold me because I didn't say things infront of your FACE. if you didn't think that it was because i don't want to argue anymore. anything i say nowadays, easily bring us into an argument. and stop sayin that you want to polish me. I'm not a stone, or a potential diamond or gold. I am Me. fully 100% ME. if you cannot accept , I;ve nothing to say. I don';t give two fucks ,if your friends cannot accept my attitude. I'm not dating your FRIENDS. I will only try not to express too much of my emotions, I won't go any further. If that is also wrong? lagi nothing to say. becasue I don't know whether are you seeing things through your own eyes, or through your friends eyes. and I cannot always see what you see.

hope you don't read. fei si.

xoxo.

2011-03-10T17:28:00.002+08:00

I rest my case you are always this late,
And you know how much I hate waiting around 'round 'round,
Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside,
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is gettin' just a little fragile,
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine.

My Valentine

2011-02-15T21:50:00.004+08:00

From him.

The day eventually became 'Mah Jong Day with friends' if you get what I mean. Deep inside me I was pissed off, yet i didn't say anything, which is odd for me. so not me. guess am tired of telling what I don't like and what I like to him. I'm not even sure of whether he remembers them or not anyway. because sometimes he shows it sometimes he doesn't. but most of the time, he doesn't. so what am I suppose to think. Anyhow, was still a lil bit happy when he bought that present for me. I actually expected nothing at all, so it's now better than nothing. We had our valentine dinner at the usual Jap Restaurant. oh, and we spend the whole time during dinner talking bout Mahjong. sad case. I'm pretty sensitive, because now I feel that we do not have much topic to talk bout nowadays. Omg, I feel so emotional ! maybe it's the time of the month is what makes? I think so. hmm ;\

Haven't been free to update my blog for the past few weeks. I was busy with CNY, all the open houses, gambling & food. went Genting with the fam the night before cny to have reunion dinner. we were there for a night only, we came back on the 1st night of cny. nothing much for this year's cny. dad said maybe because I'm getting older that's why cny became less interesting for me. might be true also ;\

Studies are okay. midterm examination is on the week after next week if I'm not mistaken. Time fly, yes. 9 more weeks til semester break. Assignments *cry* = headache

off I go now.

I'm bored. don't know what to do yet.

sigh* ciao.

2011-01-14T17:53:00.002+08:00

Lady Gaga and Pink taught me Its okay to be different.

Ke$ha taught me to be myself and not care what anyone else thinks.

Bruno Mars taught me to do anything for that one person I love.

Eminem taught me that life is hard but you can make it through.

Taylor Swift taught me not every guy/girl is going to treat me right.

...Michael Jackson taught me to always love the people around me.

Music taught me how to live

ℒℴѵℯ ♥

2011-01-01T18:34:00.001+08:00

Hello ;)

Happy New Year to All .

Will continue asap ;) sry.

2010-12-22T23:24:00.000+08:00

Hi ;)

cuppycakes.

2010-12-14T05:06:00.003+08:00

Hi, just back from Singapore with my precious baby. Gonna update later, soon. First honeymoon trip ;) lol.

It's 5.10 am noww.. shit, not sleepy at all basically because i slept like 14 hours since the night before ytd. Still, haveta force ma self to Zzz. Ciaociaos.

Flower Dreams.

2010-12-03T15:53:00.007+08:00

FINALLY ;D watched Rapunzel yesterday at Pyramid.

She is so adorable.

weeee~ love love happy endings ;)

Last night, went maison with mr. emo chiew. the 2 of us looked like sohai standing at the corner with the sien face. There was nothing much to do, we... laughed alot? we laughed at people who shuffles, laughed at a gang of lalas doin break dance, and we laughed at all the pei ka, they are just.. so funny ;') . After an hour plus, he said, lets play with the alcohol(in cantonese) . so he bought Beer and Tequila shot, we mixed them together with Dewars and it tasted like crap. I drank a sip, then leave it for him to settle ;) It really taste baddddd. sorry for him ;p

Sooo, yeaaa thats all we did i guess. LOL. you know many clubs now they are open til 5am? Yeaa. When we left It was approx 3.30am, and the crowd was already kinda dead.. Guess people can't really party til 5am huh.. ;\ I tried once, and it was fucking tiring yet fun ;D haha.

While we were heading to our car i saw this girl, she was pist drunk until a guy need to carry her to the car, and another one He was sitting/sleeping(idk) beside the drain, like too pei to move, so cham. It's fun to watch others bein like this, but thinking I was one of them creeps me out.

I have finished my finals. Having holiday now now now ;D gonna party everyday, par par par party everyday!

(If I can ;\)

I'll be very pist off if I kena FFK for the SG trip again. like.. Fcuking Pist Off.

Off I go now. Ciaos~

2010-11-24T19:54:00.005+08:00

Random pictures I took few weeks back in Singapore.

Just uploaded for fun ;)

Summer night in heaven.

2010-11-24T18:47:00.002+08:00

Since im bored over here, so.. yea ;)

Done my Law quiz 2 today, it was fine since i get to copy ;) didn't study shit last night. when i read the 1st question, I was like " ;D ". and then i read the second question, I was like " ;\ ". After i read the following questions, I went " ;( and D; ". Finished the quiz in like 30 mins, and teman-ed amira makan at the food court. Extra class today from 10-12 pm, all i did in class was listening to fengtau song, played fb games and wrote abit of notes (A BIT). heh ;D Rajin much.

Anyway finals is around the corner, its next week Dec 1,2. sei lorr.. T-T

didn't realize this semester is ending so fast, hmm. Maybe its a good thing ;D after next week, 1 month holiday again ;) . Nothing much happened this semester, same old people, same old thing, different days. Most importantly, I 've learnt new things ;) did I? o.0

Well i know i've promised this alot of times, and to alot of people, I'm gonna say this again ;D Gonna go get ma undang during this semester break ;) HEH.

Hmm ;\ ...

Maybe my life have been a lil upside down recently, i don't know.. Just a thought.

Aiyoo. Ciao Ciao.

; Stop that time for me and my lover, so we are together forever in love .

I'll be back, then you'll be mine.

2010-11-21T23:01:00.003+08:00

☮

Mist friday night, went with baby and his friends. They were all very nice ;) had fun. Bumped into Amira, Larissa, Waikuan, Kyan and Kelvin. Before heading to Mist club, met up with Hugo at our usual jap restaurant ,didn't know where to go or what to do. Ended up hugo went somewhere else which i don;t know where.

Saturday, headed to Gardens. Had my ice chocolate at Dome. Satisfying ;) Walked arnd Midvally til 8pm, then off to Subang airport to fetch yys's dad. Stayed home after that for awhile, headed to Pockets later on then Mist again. Suppose to go Milk, but there was some complications so yea. Surprisingly bumped into mike & his friends. Baby and I thought we were gonna be alone there and planned to go home early, but luckily miracle happened, lol. Had the time of ma life, because I don't rmb most of the things, it must be a good night HAHA. I only rmb a few of the things, one of it was--- lost my box ciggs which i don't know how, quite amazing cause this never happened before, maybe it has but not that i know of. Zzz gonna have to control control this few days. Got home at about 3++am, and ...don't rmb how i fell asleep.

Hangover, Sunday. Watched Harry Potter at 1U with baby, had late lunch + dinner at Italianese. Went home straight after the movie and it was arnd 9pm. I'm currently at my own house, while baby's studying at friends house. Lazy me ;)

Off to Ma Fantasy World..

This is my melody, and It's just the Ravers Fantasy.

♡ Stereo Love .

2010-11-11T01:58:00.006+08:00

I decided to update a lil. so yea, here i am.

Just came back 2 days ago from a 4 days 3 nights trip to Singapore through air asia(it sucks -.-). The reason was my cousin sister's wedding dinner at Fullerton hotel(s'pore). I love singapore, Cute clothes, heels, awesome food, everyone speaks either mandarin english teowceow or hokkien, ..etc .but so far, no hot guys. ;\

I enjoyed the trip very much, brought home a hand full of cute stuff & ciggs for baby and myself ;3 had good food everyday. Gonna go again in a few more weeks, just me and baby. or maybe others too. Gonna try the clubs over there, and shop again ;D shop shop shop! CAN'T WAIT LIAO.

These past few weeks have been pretty crazy. Clubs every week, yamcha everyday, been playing pool pretty often nowadays. I laugh everyday, even when i had a bad hair day or a really bad day. I try to be real and be myself, and not hiding anymore feelings. and when it comes to the things that suppose to make me feel bad or pist, i just laugh bout it then forget it. of course my days got better ;) live life with love and laugher.

Finished my 2nd math quiz on tuesday, mid-term for law is this coming friday. I believe i can laa ;B don't wanna fuck up anymore, the feeling of failing, sucks. GO girl, you can do this ;) don't lazy jor.

Skipping math class tmr ;) heh. Don't like goin class on thursday, because i'm gonna bump into someone somehow who couldn't face me. and lucky this business math isin;t tough, if not ;( i'll gonna have to attend thursday math class.

I miss Penang. All the memorable things, I'm gonna visit there again. soon. and when the time comes, I'm staying Hard Rock Hotel, like it or not, yys x) Ohh I miss the sunset.

ps ; I try to run, but I don't ever wanna leave.

flying without wings.

2010-10-18T03:20:00.001+08:00

Update update ;)

I'll start from Thursday til Today ;)

So, Thursday -- I went CocoBanana with Kelvin and his friends. It was a lil' boring, felt like the very first time i went to Barcelona, all the songs and everything. If you get what I meant. We got home around 3 /4 am, can't remember ;\ Baby got class the next day. Friday, waited at home for baby to come back from class, Then waited for Amelia and Joanne to reach baby's house. We went Alexis @Bangsar to yumcha, along with Leng and Ridzuan. After everything, Me Baby Joanne & Amelia drop by Maison. It was.. BassAgent Night -.- Big LOL. Got home about 4am. Saturday, Slacked around baby's house, had nothing to do at all. Went out for dinner, Then headed to Ampsquare @Pyramid from 12-4am with baby leng ching and ketshun. sho syok xD Baby stayed over my house after that, got sho happy haha. Because it has been like almost half a year since baby last stay over. Sunday, woke up bout 2pm. Forgot where I went xD but after that, had dinner with Joanne at The Place @ss15. Decided to play pool then, so we went Rack. Leng Ching & Kelvin tagged along ;) Can't remember what time I reach home though. But i remember I slept around 4am and got up bout 1130am to get to college. Class ended at 230 pm, baby called and I was guessing that he'll be fetching me, I was right ;) Was really happy. It has been like 3months since he fetch me from college ard. Today, I played pool at AC with baby, had my dinner there too. Met Alan and eugene, yumcha'ed. and just now went oldtown @Taipan to yumcha(again) with soo leong & nicole.

I m actually very sleepy. I can doze off any time now, so ciao ;)

Leng & KetShun @AmpSquare. Room36.

;)

An ecstatic Friday night. Without supper ;)

2010-10-11T00:54:00.012+08:00

This is what happened last friday. @Maison, to celebrate baby and I, 1st official anniversary.

Not only our friends were there, Kahwai's friends joined too, literally. They were downstairs, we were upstairs. It was a typical Friday JUICE NIGHT. I had fun, I'm sure they did too ;) But as always, Maison had a lot of slutty-underage-lala-girls hanging/running around.

Joanne ♥

Tiff and baby ♥

My moment of Joy ;)

This is what happens after overdoses of alcohol.

It's monday now, am starting college in like a few more hours ;( My body clock is so fucked up, wonder how will I fall asleep later. Doubt that I'll be having enough sleep for classes. Urgh. I'm so fucked. I'm excited yet worried bout college ;S mixed emotions. Should I eat breakfast tmr? hmmm.

Can't wait to meet my friends ;)

Yours Truly ♥

I like that, Like a G6 ♥

2010-10-07T02:33:00.010+08:00

365 days, we've been together. Yes, we've been through alot. Sometimes I can't even imagine and believe that we actually went through all the troubles just to stay by each other's side. All the promises and lies, arguments and commitment. ;') Love is hard, really hard when it comes to hotter guys HAHAAHA.

I love you

Happy (official) Anniversary baby ♥

You are always the sugar in my coffee ;')

Somehow I miss this hair of his ;(

Genting @April.

Aww ;') Baby do you remember this?

Most recent picture of us.

♥ ciao

suffocated.

2010-09-27T03:13:00.002+08:00

Been goin' gym pretty often nowadays. Having bodyaches here and there. I feel so happy and hyper after gym.

Wednesday - after gym, Mist with ashley and baby. gym + club, awesomeee.

Thursday- ??gym and yumcha at oldtown, subang avenue.

Friday- Mist again, with Joanne. great night. no pictures. bump into edward & gang, and others. FT plan failed, as expected.

Saturday- Hangover in the afternoon. Jingyu's party at night , then Mist & Milk.

Today- Hangover. ate dim sum in the evening. went to kajang, yumcha with amelia and jinyang. Back to subang yumcha at oldtown, taipan. home now, stoning.

ciaos.

AJ^2

2010-09-10T18:16:00.009+08:00

HELLO HELLO ;)

Bangsar with Joanne, Amelia & Tiffany, for lunch, dessert & shopping.

MOS last night. It was damn failure, epic failure. So tired and moody, the DJ damn fail, the songs sucked too. Sigh. Maybe it's true that without the others it's no fun at all. The best part of the night, it was us camwhoring inside the car like nobodys' business.

Love melia's car, full of HelloKitty ♥ aha.

Maison tonight. fingers crossed, everything will be perfectly fine.

Baby is still very sick, hope he feels better later.

morning glory

2010-09-07T17:07:00.004+08:00

It's been long since i blogged.

Another month has passed, alot had happened.

My finals are over, having sem break now until next month 11th. Im half relieve and half stress, afraid to fail my IT once again.

It's the 7th today,

Happy 11th Month together ;)

Last night, baby brought me some keropok & made me coffee. coffee sucked, but it's the thought that counts. haha.

So yeaaa im having holiday for a month. winks*

And am goin penang next weekend with the college mates. Baby & friends might be joining, yeeppie ;) can't wait any longer for it.

stay tune for my next post ya peeps ;)

I actually dye my hair though, it's suppose to be purple, but... sigh.

2010-08-11T18:37:00.001+08:00

Why must you always make me look like the bad guy?

456.

2010-08-10T00:13:00.002+08:00

I have alot alot, ALOT OF ASSIGNMENTS to finish up today. tons of work, so little TIME. All i need is time, but yet im wasting time on frontierville -.- omfgwth. I was suppose to start my CTS assignment like, 3hours ago? ya i know, procrastination. All of my assignments are already meeting the due dates, and i haven't done shit. It's currently 12.25am(at baby's house), I have to finish up one of the assignment by 8am. haha.

off now.

♡

2010-08-06T19:52:00.003+08:00

When your throat starts to burn, and your heartbeat speeds up, when your stomach tightens, and your lungs close up, when your tears rush to your eyes faster than you ever dreamed possible, that's the worst pain you will ever feel. that's your heart breaking.

cbk

2010-08-06T19:39:00.004+08:00

Hey hey it's friday again.

hey hey it's a suckish day.

oh oh, go fuck yourself.

yes yes, gmme your cash.

uh oh, too bad for you.

mm mm, want some ice-cream?

haha, i ate it all.

..: stoned:..

3,2,1

2010-08-02T21:02:00.003+08:00

I can't take it any longer,

thought that we were stronger,

all we do is linger,

slippin' through our fingers.

I am an Angel.

2010-08-02T20:33:00.005+08:00

I don't know what am i doin with my life.

I don't study much, in fact i really dislike study.

I don't like to go collage, because im doin everything that i don't like.

I don't even know what i like to study.

I love to spend money, on food, clothes, shoes, bags etc.

I'm not earning any money.

I have six piercings on my ears, and planning to have a tattoo on my back/leftboob.

I 'm not sure what i would like/want to become in the future.

I only care bout my boyf, future wedding, future house/car. honestly.

I don't give two fucks bout home works.

I love to club, because i like dancing, alcohol & cigarettes.

I have no secrets. they are all arnd everywhere. here and there. don;t know where.

I love my life. no doubt. love my boyf, family & friends. love Hello kitty, white & pink. Just that i don't know how to handle it the perfect way.

Last day.

2010-07-23T00:21:00.003+08:00

It's 12,21am ;0

At baby house now, gonna watch DVD soon ;)

Midterm exam has finally ended. IT today was okay. The objective questions was kinda easy weasy ;) The test was suppose to end at 4pm, but I finished the test by 250pm, so I went out of the exam hall early. Waited one hour for daddy to fetch me home. ;(

Angels & Demons

2010-07-21T21:18:00.003+08:00

Good Evening world ;)

Currently in baby's house, playing frontierVille on Facebook. My beloveed baby, is now sleeping like the Garfield ;) cuute.
Came back home after dinner at Italianese @Empire, again.
Just finished my ACCOUNTING test today, damn i hate accounts ;( hmph. I was sweating the whole time, yuck. Nervous much. 'cause, i just can't seem to remember anything about it. Oh Dear Accounts, you seriously fucked me upside down inside out. It was a relieve, when the test ended, but at the same time I'm worried. I can't fail again.
Tomorrow I will be having my last test, IT ;( then midterm is over.
IT? another weak subject for me. I only know how to use it, and I'm not really interested in actually Knowing what's inside and what's controlling it.
After Midterm, Friday is an off day, for me. Mommy is gonna take me to Putrajaya and renew my IC. I really wanna get my driving license ;( stupid procrastinator. ish. I'm gonna register soon after I get my new IC ;D I pinky promise.

Offing to wake baby up ;)
ciao ciao.

Shorts & Stripes

2010-07-19T16:45:00.005+08:00

Fav Car of the day ♥ Ayumi + Bling bling.. But guess who's the Driver, a Malay Dude. lol.

July 16th, Friday.

Finished class at 12pm, waited for driver to come, but yys fell asleep in his Library and forgot to tell the driver to come ;\ so, i waited in my college for an hour like an idiot, in the end baby fetched me of course. We went BU4 for some reason, but it turned out a waste of time. Reached baby house around 4pm, baby slept for 5 hours, and i have the computer all to myself for 5hours. So when he woke up it was ard 8/9pm. we Stopped by Mist club after that, VIP Entrance, Free Flow of Rum, but me and Baby only stayed for an hour plus or two. It was raining heavily at 1 in the morning. was suppose to watch DVD and eat MacD when we reach home, but failed, 'cause i fell asleep ;D haha.

July 17th, Saturday.

Planned to go Zouk- Failed, so changed plan to Opera-Failed, then Roots- Failed. It was an Epic Failure Day. First, ling had an accident right infront of yeeleng's house. Sigh. And all the failed plans.

July 18th, Sunday.

woke up in the afternoon, fetched ling from his house and wnt ss15 to have lunch at Face to face. Stopped by Ftz to da kei. and after that met up with Zaq and went Italianese @Empire to yumcha. Ket Shun then came over with Wai Kuan and her bros. Later, went down to OUG to fetch Cally & Nash to yumcha again at Leo's. Baby wanted to pump petrol, who knows that there's a road block infront of us. The police stopped us, ask us to show our IC. Among the five of us, me & cally lost our IC and haven't renew it, and Nash didn't carry her IC out. lol. wtf right, road block on a Sunday night is weird. The P actually indirectly asked for money if we want to settle, 'cause they wanted to bring cally and nash to the police station. but in the end we didn't pay a cent .

July 19th, Today.

Midterm is tomorrow. Wish me luck ;)

offing.

Latte & Dunhill

2010-07-15T00:29:00.004+08:00

Random pictures of me, after club .

;D Hello

Just got home from Italianese @Empire, with baby, ling, sching and joanne. went there to 'yumcha' and get complimentary bread only ;B it was really relaxing and chilling, it's a nice place to gossip gossip . We stayed there for almost 2 hours, gossiping x)

Baby promise tomorrow bring me go shopping and register for driving license, Friday bring me go club ;D yay!

So, college today was.. usual. 8am start class, 330 end class. Oh, today suddenly the building ran out of electricity. i was praying that class wont be canceled, because everyone will be goin back home and i'll be stoning at college for fucks, i don't want that ;s but lucky lah, it didn;t happen.

Got home after class, facebooked for few hours, played frontierville, bejeweled & texasHold'em lol. lifeless kan? and for that few hours, i kept repeating that song 'need you now - Lady antebellum' it's unbelievably addictive. They have a remix version of 'need you now' damn trance giler, and very nice. Addictive ;)

Um.. after that, i showered and painted my nails. that's all i did for today.

ciao ciao

offing now ;)

Lemon Juice & Water

2010-07-13T23:22:00.004+08:00

Funniest picture ever ;D look at amelia.

Today is baby's first day of college ;D Yesterday was orientation, he fell asleep as usual :)

Just had dinner with him @B&N. He was really tired so didn't get to yumcha after that. So, we went straight home . He wanted to sleep. Reached home arnd 10+, Facebooked until now. gonna sleep soon ;) Nothing happened at college today, just the usual tuesday timetable, two classes, 10am - 2pm. Tomorow is the most hactic day among all the other week days. hee, three classes, ends at 330pm.
Soo, i got home arnd at 230pm? watched desperate housewife and fell asleep on the sofa. while i was half way snoring there, someone rang the doorbell, it was mom. i woke up unwillingly to open the door, then went to my room and continued sleeping. anyway, when i woke up it was ard 7+ , checked on my phone, a few miscalls and msg, called baby, and waited for him to take me out for dinner ;) That's all for today.

Midterm coming next week, accounts can eat shit. I have two assignments to do, group assignment, not too bad, at least i get to be malas abit ;p

im off now ;)

nights, ciao ciao ♥

DJ Sense + Chivas + ice-cream

2010-07-11T17:51:00.003+08:00

well , i don't know most of their name, and i don't know them in person too. ;\

Last friday, 9th July

Cally's birthday party @SS15 starbucks upstairs, i don't know what's that place called. Went with baby, ling & siching.

Before that me and bi, ling, joanne, yeeleng & amelia went over siching's place to bake space cake, it's for cally's birthday. basically, it was damn failure. dont know why. while waiting the cake to be bake, me yeeleng and amelia camwhored ;D funny funny poses here and there. and because joanne went out 7E to buy ice-cream, so that's why she didn't camwhore with us. yeeleng amelia joanne suppose to follow us go drinking, but after the cake's done it's already 11pm. so they went home instead. amelia was grounded by her dad, haha that's why she's not allowed to stay out late. poor poor amelia.

Saturday, 10th July

woke up at 2pm i think, fucking hangover. especially baby =\ we were lazing around the house til 4pm then we head over Pyramid to meet glenn & ee von (i'm not really sure how to spell her name). Pyramid was crowded, suuuuuper crowded that even finding a parking is so hard. me and bi wasted 30min to just find a parking ;( .
Met glenn and ee von at Wong Kok. stayed there for approx 2hours? i guess.. after that headed over to FTZ for L4D ;) my fav game heee.
the guys played dota after l4d, while me and ee von were facebooking lifelessly. lol. after 2hours of gaming, we were goin to meet ling and the others. suppose to go drinking, but in the end didn't. and god damn it, my period came to visit me during midnight. i hate you P ! D;

Sunday, today.

Woke up at 1pm. played facebook + watched glee for awhile + lunch + ice-cream on bed + glee again + then facebook
that's what i've beeen doin the whole afternoon. ;\ Lazing and wandering .
lol. facebooking helps you pass your time, Fast.

alright, im off now.

ciao ciao ♥

urgh.

2010-07-11T03:20:00.002+08:00

I just don't know how to use words to describe my feelings anymore.

everyday, there's always a part where things are fucked up.

PMS!

I'm back. Back to the world, away from reality.

2010-06-29T10:49:00.003+08:00

Hello ;)

I'm back blogging again.

I'm in college @library right now, just done my presentaion an hour ago. My presentation was a total failure. I overlooked my question paper, so basically i had to re-do my slides and stuff and present again.

I had Breakfast after presentation. I feel so bloated, I mean all the time. I am suffering underconfidence now. T_T you know how sad is that? very. I gained Cb fcuking alot of weight in these 8 months. I want to cry !

Alright, back to my topic.

so, i have been through two Roadtrips in Two weeks.

The first one was Malacca. I forgot the date fcuk it. Malacca was fcuked up, the weather was UGhh bitch! well yeah i enjoyed eating the chicken rice there. but that's all i like about the trip, nothing else is worth remembering.

The second Roadtrip, We (10 person, lazy to state names) went to Cherating @Kuantan. It's way better than the Malacca fcuked up trip. We went to the beach, played with sand and sea water, went to swim in the pool and jaguzzi ;D and after everything, BBQ at the beach during the night. The moon that night was really bright and pretty. and the stars are more visible and shinny than in Subang. Back in Subang i hardly can see any stars shinning around. Oh well.

Edited, 3.42pm

Just got home from college, exhausted. Haven't been had enough sleep for the past few weeks. Headache tiba-tiba come, damn annoying. Goin' out soon, but not sure where yet. I AM SO TIRED. i even fell asleep during Accounts class. Aiyoo.

[All the pictures are on facebook!]

ciao ciao ;)

..。噯呀~

2010-06-07T00:17:00.003+08:00

Happy Happyyy Haapppy 8th month dolly ;)

you're thee sugar in my coffeeeee. { ♥!}

;muaamua!

.
♥

It was your smile that brightens my lonely day.

2010-05-31T22:39:00.007+08:00

SOo, I camhored with this little boy there back home after Mist ;)
It was so entertainting for the both us (i assume) because we couldn't sleep, as usual ;)
here are some of em, soon will be more on facebook. I hope(if im not lazy).

Just got home from bi bi's house, nothing special ;)

Had dinner and stuff.

And, Hugo Chia bang his car. poor little boy thought it was his fault ;( but then it wasn't.

Nighty night people.

lalalaaa-

2010-05-30T01:16:00.009+08:00

Thrusday,

went to MOS with the bunch. Had problem gettin in at first, after that was fine, because i borrowed Ashs ID ;8 the sad part is, i dont wanna talk about it x\

the music did n't amaze me. nor make me hyper. just pure... idk. I saw everyone seems to be having fun the whole night, but not for me. All i can say is, me and the club, we don't click ;(

Before goin' mos, checking my eye liner.

After mos, was @ mamak. I collected all those stickers that say : "I
♥ MixTape" from my friends ;D

Cause & effect lesson #1 ;) my hand became like this, coz i was to tired taking 'em out.

Friday,

as usual went to Mist Club.

I was not happy AT ALL. Thanks to one stupid girl. pffft.

Moonlight shadow

2010-05-24T00:16:00.002+08:00

Just got back from Pyramid. and watched Bounty Hunter with ling,ashley & pink + bi. Before that, had dinner with baby at SS14. went to pasar malam, bought a new feng tau CD for the car to boom shake drop ;D
Everyday seems to end so quickly, that i can't even feel it's happening from the start. Everyday, everyweek.. doin' the same stuff, seeing the same people.. goin' the same place.. i'm getting so tired of it. My life had become upside down without my notice. now what had I become, someone that i don't recognize at all.
I've been emoo for these past few weeks, because I'm so lost about my life, because I don't even know which step to take which way to go, because I don't understand. I don't understand why certain things have to go certain ways. Why pull have to be with bear, why peanut have to go with butter, why bed comes with a blanket, why the sky of blue is reflected by the sea.
wtf.

..
.
.
I just want to drink and throw out all the problems. but what is there to live for without any trouble , without any problems and solutions, without any questions and answers. that is for you to think and for me to know.
.
.
sleepy already. nighty night ;)

I know you want me..

2010-05-19T23:31:00.002+08:00

One old picture, taken few months ago @ Mist.

see he sooo ugly.

Nowadays, always yumcha with ling,ching,ash,pink & hugo. of course bi also. yumcha until damn 7 sien d. Last Tuesday, went all the way to Look out point just to yumcha. can see how free are we. always yumcha at the same place 7 boring already.

Last thrusday, YAP YEE SAM went genting & safari without ME. I found out just yesterday. i cb dulan at him, didn't even want to talk to him. we were at Kimgary btw. After all the biting pinching punching, we went home, and i stayed over his house and watched Hooking Up. Movie was a total bore, but somehow i enjoyed watching it haha.

I want to watch the Bounty Hunter, it looks like a nice movie ;) gonna watch maybe tomorrow or something. or maybe not ;\ i also dont know.

eeks, tomorrow 8 - 5pm class again, can die. out of cash now, cause of college, why don't they just provide us food so that i don't have to pay money anymore for food. fuck. everyday at least need $20, everyday 20 20 20, one day sure kosong. Pluss, im not working. no license no money no nothing, only left baby with me. I know i don't blog often these days, and now im blogging bout shits. Getting sleepy already, my vision damn blur now.

Pitbull was superr awesome last Saturday. Super!

::.They say Ima potential Raver.::

waiting for the pictures to post up on facebook. ;)

Nighty night.

All the crazy shit i did tonight...

2010-05-09T14:35:00.003+08:00

7/5, after Mist Club.

Happy 7th month ♥

Love love you ;)

...

♥

123th post

2010-04-27T01:18:00.003+08:00

, suppose to be a happy one.. but fcuk it.

I don't give a shit bout all this anymore. pointless anyways.

I feel like shit, you do too. and i do not know how to admit it to you. everysingletime i admit to you that i feel like a mothafcuker you'll start asking and saying things with a tone i hate to listen, cause it always makes me dumbfounded or full of shitty feelings right at that moment, if i just tell you whatever its in my fcuking mind i swear to you you'll kneel down and cry. maybe i exaggerated it too much. but who cares. love isn't all and it isn't enough afterall. sorry i don't know how to hide my feelings because i always show everything on my bitch facee to you and you have to likee 'suffer' from itt or whatever you call that. and sorry bout my bitchhh attitude that always pisses you off. I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU, that's what i;m trying to say, end of conclusion.

noowww,

something happy.

i baked a cake, like literally.

can say its a failed one, but people likes it, whatever.

we made it last night though.

Tmr, there will be another one. with more people involve and will add in some special ingredient/ a really special one.

ciaos, bad mood. fcuk off.

cascada -trance voices vol 12 -bad boy.

2010-04-22T16:10:00.002+08:00

Remember the feelings, remember the day
My stone heart was breaking
My love ran away
This moments I knew I would be someone else
My love turned around and I fell
Be my bad boy, be my man
Be my week-end lover
But don't be my friend
You can be my bad boy
But understand
That I don't need you in my life again
Won't you be my bad boy, be my man
Be my week-end lover
But don't be my friend
You can be my bad boy
But understand
That I don't need you again
No I don't need you again
You once made this promise
To stay by my side
But after some time you just pushed me aside
You never thought that a girl could be strong
Now I'll show you how to go on
Be my bad boy, be my man
Be my week-end lover
But don't be my friend
You can be my bad boy
But understand
That I don't need you in my life again

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.

Random much.

2010-04-21T15:54:00.004+08:00

Bi : 哩high紧时咩都敢做

me : 我边度有

Bi : 种话某？哩记得嗰日哩high澜咗哩post向过个myvi隔离哞？

me : 我边度有？！

Bi : 有拉！

me : 屌哩某啦！

Bi : 有拉！我涕度过个相我都傻咗。哩post向RX8种话ok, myvi窝搞错哈哈。

就似一张，

被渠笑唑成晚.

2010-04-19T17:59:00.000+08:00

Hey bi, don't worry ;)

z'

2010-04-15T16:12:00.002+08:00

At last, Finals over. Sem break now ;)
I have two weeks of holiday, happy*
task------ GENTING!

Yesterday was Zueyi's b'day ;)
went to some crappy but nice place for dinner.
(love love love the mash potatoes thr ♥)
Followed the guys to ftz aka scond hell, they clicked on the dota icon, waited for it to load, named themselves with funny names, click into a idk what, start cursing to people who doesn't want to leave, game start in the count of 5, they select their "Zero", chg whatever weather they want, or whatever, and started talking/shouting/cursing to themselves/computer, amusing. Not. i like medusa though ;B so sexy.

ANY PLANS? ANYONE? FCUKING BORINGGGG. WANT GO HERITAGE ROWWW.

my mind is suffering

2010-04-11T23:57:00.002+08:00

SO, tiff still have not upload the pictures yet.
I have math and study skills exam tmr.

Last night, was lam shien's b'day. we gathered at tiff's house, and had dinner at Victoria Station. The girls actually baked a cake for him, but FAILED, so they went out and bought another cake for him. During dinner, it was hilarious, though i considered it as the worse dinner i ever had, i still enjoyed at the end of the day. Because me and bi didn't get our stomach full, we decided to go mamak and eat again, and it was fcuking 12 am, food again, GG.
soo, we went FTZ right after FOODDD. CS-ed with sching & alvin. Pinky& ashley & songling came by approximately 130am. idk. I was effingg tired like mothafcukr when bi was STILL dota-ing. d9lan. I was dozing off all the way even when im standing and walking. Bi slept over my place.
Today is my brother's b'day, had dinner at dad's friends' house. and i got a manicure, foc. Im so tired. nites.

Mist oh baby!

2010-04-10T15:25:00.001+08:00

Last night,
High like mothafcukxr!

waiting for tiff's pictures ;)

Love you with every bits of my bloody red heart {♥}

2010-04-09T11:13:00.003+08:00

It's already April, sorry that I kinda abandoned this blog.
Alot had happened these days.
Nowadays, I have been constantly goin to Mist club every Friday since march. AND, that is because Bi is trying to make me get bored of it. heehee. good luck trying though ;)
Last Saturday, went all the way to Genting with Bi, sching, ketshun, songling, nadin, bel & winston for a rave party called Speedzone. but in the end, tak jadi for some of us because we couldn't get the tickets. Thus, the others went in and partayy without us. I wasn't that disappointed actually, because before I was afraid that how am I to deal with bunch of D.Addicts when I don't even like D.Addicts. haha. still, i enjoy goin genting ;) i love my friends ;B

College has been a bitch and the pain in the fcuking ass. Finals starting this Saturday which is tomorrow, and after finals I'll be free from my bird cage, for only two weeks! great. fair enough. Life is doin fine right now, I'm having enough fun, and I'm spending almost everyday with my dearest hun. he's like the peanut to my butter, the sunlight to my flowers ;) Today is april 8th, so yesterday was our 6th month ♥ time do pass by quickly.

Tonight is the night, many of us will be goin Mist, like... AGAIN. but this time there will be many more of them are coming along. big night ;) and it's gonna be a good one. can't wait ;B teehee. it's 1.28pm now, it means that i've been looking at this same page and thinking of what to type for almost 2 hours. always the same am i ;) haa.
_._._._

Gonna continue to my new addiction, the anime ;B "Dance in the Vampire Bund"♥
awesome anime ;) seriously. the main guy character--Akira ♥ fcukin handsome & smoking HOTT!

well, ;) Happy 6th month hun ♥

2010-03-29T17:18:00.002+08:00

You're full of shit.

money monster.

2010-02-17T15:24:00.005+08:00

Eileen's open house ;D

then Rainforest-sunway
after that, Jocelyn's house gambling til 4am.(could've eat McD's breakfast ;0)

Seeeeee, I got black jack ;D was kinda.. LUCKY, that night.

Glenn's sad face xD cause he lost quite alot of money.

BUT THEN,
he won back yesterday wtf.
wtf wtf wtf.
Yesterday, went pyramid for movie and dinner.
then ahhh, went AC to meet joanne, amelia and jocelyn.
and we headed to yeeleng's house first then bi's house to gamble later on.
after we finish everything, went mamak to makan.
then horrrrr, the boys(bi, glenn,sching and michael)
went michael's house to watch FOOTBALL.
sooo, we all stayed til 530 in the morning.
and went i got home is was already 6am.
issh.
woke up at 1pm just now.
AND til now, i havent even started to do my assignment.
fml.
ciaos.

Classes tomorrow pfffttt.

2010-02-13T21:58:00.005+08:00

Wednesday,
First went down to Kay elle-qu chiong gai & ts ;)
met yuki and wai.
Then, Alvin's 18th birthday party ;B

Thursday,
Finally bought some new clothes for cny ;B but it was baby's money ;'(
Watched movie with bi, glenn, sching, lamshein & joanne.

3 long sleeves and kitty tissue from Forever 21,

grey and blue shorts from Cotton on,

the white one from randomshopatasianavenue

& peach water lip gloss from Etude house.

The Kitty Tissue ;D cost bi rm15 lol. he xim tia.

Friday,

Reunion dinner at puchong.

went to look for baby and friends at pyramid after that.

we waited for Alvin, and then headed to FTZ. L4D ;B

(was actually suppose to go MOS, issh ;\)

Stayed til 3am, and went yumcha.

Slept over baby's place. exhausted.

Today,

went to catch a movie with bi.

then went home for dinner.

Tomorrow,

assignment day.

althought it's the first day of cny.

it's fcuking due date is on thursday.

presentation on friday. *faint @@

\

OH OH OHHH, I got my valentine's day presents this morning, weeeee x3

kitty baby-tee with my name on it & 100 lolipops(from Gaint haha.) ♥

so baby don't worry, you are my only.

2010-02-07T18:04:00.006+08:00

Again, spent the whole week with Darl.
Darl fetched me from college, monday-thrusday.
Friday, had lunch/dinner with Darl @ station 1. *heavy rain in the afternoon.* went home after that. it was 6pm, suppose to sleep but then.. i skipped it and on9-ed til night. Darl called me around 1030pm, said that he's coming to pick me up but he did not tell me THAT where we were going. Although I did suggest that we may go Mist after his company's anual dinner. OH WELL. The point was, I didn't have any make-ups on and even HEELS. I went to his house at first, saw Alvin was already outside his house waiting. We got inside the house together and waited for the others to come. Watched Paris Hilton-my BFF with Alvin in Darl's room while waiting for them- glenn, michael, dk.
After they reached Darl's house, waited for a lil bit longer before we go.
We were kinda emm.. lost, in bangsar baru. wtf. Reached Mist arnd 1250am.
Hmm, it was fun though, apprecaited Darl purposely bring me there after his dinner, even i was kinda d9lan when he didn't tell me properly that we were goin' there. And again, i went club without make-ups =\ but with his sisters' black heels. I had fun looking at baby's drunken face, laughing when a random girl sat on Alvin's lap and he got forced to smoke, the same random girl held Glenn's hand and kept forcing him to drink. I hope they had fun too ;)
OH Btw, an ang-mo asked my number xB heeeee.

As always, stayed over Darl's house, and had lunch with ching and jinyang the next day. And because I woke up kinda late, so I skipped that darn replacement class for cny's holiday(screw my college). It's Saturday, darl had driving lesson to attend, so i followed jinyang to pyramid to meet the others first and wait for darl to come later. Darl came at 5++pm, we watched the movie-- Tiger Wohoo. Just not quite my type of movie =\ but it was okay ;) and before watching the movie, we had our meal at Sakae Sushi.

I almost forgot it was me and darl's 4 months anniversary the next day (which is today). After the movie we shopped awhile for CNY clothes, though i bought nothing back home. Then, we went AC (again. but for a reason this time). I went to Darl's house first before goin' home. was darn tired. When i got home it was already 150am. Straight away jump into my bed and slept til the next Afternoon, 330pm. Uhh.

__1235am__

Anyways, I just finished my study skills assignment, called darl awhile, fb-ed awhile, so after this I'm goin' to bed. Classes until 5 tomorrow, Bi is gonna fetch me back ;) wee.

OH and, Happy 4th Month Anniversary Baby ;) Love you always ♥

2010-01-30T21:49:00.002+08:00

Spent the whole week with him, and it's tiring eventhough it made me happy all the time. Yes, it's probably what I wanted.
Maybe I'm such a pain in the ass. or maybe i should leave him alone? hmm.. what am i thinking.

2010-01-29T14:33:00.001+08:00

waiting baby now to fetch me from home ;)

I want nobody nobody but you ;)

2010-01-24T22:40:00.004+08:00

Friday,

-Orientation night.

piece of crap.

-Mist Club.

Bf showed up. Slept over.

OH, bumped into Jason Kok. That bytch.

Saturday,

-Late for replacement class. Skipped f.math.

Just slept for less than 3 hours before school. tired like mtherfxckr.

-Maison.

Bf drunk. He said sorry, I said sohai.

Dance floor sucked.

Got in with no make-ups or whatever shyt.

------------------------------------------------------------------~--------------------------------

I didnt drink more than a cup for both nights. heh ;)

waiting for his call.

Classes again tomorrow. I missed holidays. much.

Zouk, Gosh, Supper, MOS, Oprah... etc. here I come.

Anti-Feng Tou!

2010-01-20T20:00:00.005+08:00

Supposedly, I have an event goin on, a talk, but unfortunately they call it off due to some blablablaa reason. so, I actually went college today for nothing. oh well kaiser i don't blame you, its not your fault haha.

Although I have no class at all during the day, I am still very tired, because I'M SICK. cough like mad cow, getting fever, flu ZZZ. so not in the moooood for anything. worse, the president thinggy.. I CANNOT THINK WHEN I'M SO TIRED AND MY BODY'S ACHING. I don't get enough of sleep every night, I don't like computing.p I don't like finite maths, and every morning the first class is either one, so not coool.

After college, went home and waited for Darl's driver. fetched me to taipan then AC to meet Darl. Finally, relief~ He's like my personal medic. somehow idk. He brought me to see the doc, which cost me 50BUCKS. Dinner. then went straight home.

Darl is currently sleeping now on his small little tilam maybe.. I miss him already. How I wish he could visit me every single day. shyt, I'm addicted to him. ops.

2010-01-18T00:03:00.002+08:00

MIST CLUB ON LAST FRIDAY NIGHT.
no pictures.

I'm now in a situation that, I have no idea what should I do, questions and questions, searching for the right answers, Dilemma. I need to make a decision, and it would change my entire college life. I need to make a decision, and I'll have to give up some of the things, some of my dream. Stress. It's hard to fall asleep when my heart is asking my head for answers!

2010-01-13T23:36:00.006+08:00

my new best friend ;)

After finishing all my classes yesterday, I went to pavilion with Ryanthecollegemate. well before that he took me to some saloon and I washed and blowed my hair, he paid for it because idk. Had late lunch over there. waited for Darl to arrive, we left ryan and then we headed to midvalley by lrts and taxi. Walked shops to shops, bought two movie tickets for 'Sherlock Holmes', had dinner and went home.

OHH, and I went for an interview this afternoon. Had lunch with the friends and played pool after that. Darl fetch me back from college, which caused him alot of trouble ;s My day was okayy for today. I hope i will get what i wanted. Orientation Night next friday, and at the same time, it is the final judgement.

Goodnight people.

2010-01-10T23:08:00.003+08:00

'Nobody disturbs my girlfriend and gets away with it.'

That's what I would like to hear thank you.

OHHH, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY ;3

2010-01-09T05:00:00.004+08:00

JANUARY 7TH,
-Weird candle light 'dinner'.
-A big card with pictures and ugly writings. ;)
-A kiss and a hug.
Ain't ideal, but.. haha, I was really happy. Though that day was suppose to be the worst day of my bloody life. I actually went home early, it was 9pm to be exact.

Today,
Reached college at exactly 8am, I was considered as LATE. After that I slept at 2 and woke up at 5. Rotted at home for a few hours, then went pyramid for a stupid movie that caused me temporally insomnia, like right now. Uggh I'm trying to sleep, but I'm all freaked out. Still shivering at the moment. Screw that shit.

Need to wake up at 12 later.
goodmorning, but i'll try harder to get some sleep.
ciaos.

2010-01-06T15:42:00.003+08:00

I'm devastated. Don't know whatelse to feel at a moment like this. Don't know what should I be feeling either. She's like a mother to me, losing her it's like losing a part of my soul. Prayers again later at 6. Hope she really Rest In Peace.

And,

Thankyou Darl. Nothing feels better than a kiss from you.

it's 2010, wake up.

2010-01-04T23:15:00.003+08:00

This is the day that I will remember for life.

The day that everyone of us, is trying to accept that ugly truth.

My College classes are officially starting by tomorrow,

it's gonna be a busy year,

because i'm goin' to make myself occupied.

Today--- Orientation day.

It went pretty well. Met a few of my old friends, met a person that i don't like and a new friend---Ryan. He's gonna be 19yrs old this coming Thrusday. Maybe i'll buy him a cupcake to celebrate.

That's it for today. I had the worst news of my life, and I'm goin' to bed, again.

Tomorrow will be a better day.

Like a diamond in the sky.

2010-01-02T21:58:00.010+08:00

Celebrated New Year Eve @ jingyu's and tiff's house. Countdown @ tiff's house too ;) enjoyed, with the Bacardi Apple & Henessy. But fcuk it, i vomited thrice, again -.- K.O-ed on Darl's bed, so do the rest who stayed over his house after the party.

Most of the pictures are on facebook. yea.

retarded + vain pots.

bein' childish.

♥ Darl~

Group photo ;)

I woke up the next day, had a wedding dinner to attend @ Renaissance Hotel.

The wedding was awesome ;) got a live band playing over there. AND i saw a tall, dark, skinny & handsome guy playing the piano, he's the pianist of the band. ♥!! awwwww~

The decos are pretty and nice. They have candeys as their souvenir ;)

OH, the foods were delicious ;) unlike any other wedding's.

The dress
♥

The necklace

perfect ;)

souvenirs ;)

101th post.

2009-12-31T04:17:00.006+08:00

Well yes, you made me helpless sometimes. I do not like when you shout at me. I feel awful when you say out my faults. I like bursting out my tears when you were so called stating the facts that I couldn't deny. I desperately want you to read my mind and know what I'm feeling when you hurt me, or sometimes you don't even know you did.

Even so, i still eager for your tenderness and love. I don't hate you, just wanted to brag/rant/express. I still love you the same as before ;) of course i do.

A Happy New Year? It should be. A wonderful Christmas? sure did. 2009 is ending, shit. I'm 18 next year, I meant next day. unofficially. NO, I don't like the idea of bein' an adult soon. no no. I will surely miss high school, miss bein' 17. or 16. skip the spm part it would be even perfect. AHH. College starting by next week, have to kiss goodbye to my holidays soon. Driving lessons, still pending. My life is still goin' on and fine, it doesn't suck like last time anymore.

I strongly believed that 2010 will be a better year, despite I don't want bein' an adult so soon. Hope 2012 is a bullshit, because I want to get my own VolksWagen by age 25/26. Earn lucrative income to support myself, and buy branded goods with my own credits. Sounds pretty good to me haha.

It's 5:16 in the morning.

Baby just called and said goodnight. So yea i'm gonna go get some sleep now.

Btw, Happy New Year everyone.

;)

2009-12-22T03:39:00.004+08:00

And it worth everything just to be with you.

2009-12-21T02:22:00.002+08:00

I don't speak, it doesn't mean that I don't understand. It doesn't mean that I don't know. It doesn't mean that I've never thought of it. It doesn't mean that I don't care.

-empty.

Jingle bells~

2009-12-19T01:13:00.004+08:00

Update update update... what to update?

After spm, I've been busy and out almost every night. Maybe every night =\

Oh and yea, fcuk spm fcuk spm fcuk spm. Damn. I feel nothing even spm ended. Same old same old. But seriously, I've no idea what to update. My life with Darl too nothing much to elaborate. Maybe I'm just too lazy to rewind back the days and nights. Nothing crazy.

Thought of straightening back my hair, hell i Know i should. Too bad mom doesn't allow me too ;( Darl owe me four movies and im still counting that. yat 7 ffk me. next time, i smart already, never believe what he said he would take me to do this or that. stupid yap yee sam stupid stupid stupid ;(

OH it reminds me of something, Christmas is around the corner bitches. Should i get him something? or should i not? Love Christmas to the max weyhh ;3 aww. can't wait til it snows, hahaa. Just loved the feeling of Christmas, but hated when the new year starts. school. yea. Although im out from high school, but still. Ugghh.

Besides, I need shopping ;\ Damn. I need romance. Damn. more.

Ping ahhh, I'm waiting for you to come back me love ;D

night people.

will update more often I promise ;)

2009-12-06T00:32:00.000+08:00

This sucks, what's wrong with my cable and my phone !

2009-12-05T03:47:00.003+08:00

Why don't I just take a break.
Like just now.
I almost bang a tree and died, could've killed three person inside the car.
Damn.

Awesome and awful nights I've been through.
I still don't get what is it that I really want. 'cause all the things I wanted, doubt.
To love a person, it's really hard. as I always knew. The hardest part for me to be in love is when, you started thinking and wondering, when will this end. forever? Twilight saga for me it's just another fairytale.
And I'm trying really hard to stay awake, to stay alert, anytime/anywhere, I don't wanna get heart disease. again. not of the lack of love nor hate. Just pure.. emoness. yea.
It sounds just weird, but really..
I don't wanna loose you. I don't wanna loose anything that we are holding right now.

Just got back from little genting.
Goin' to bed now.
It's 4am in the morning. sleeping at this time, is not new anymore.
btw, spm two more papers to go.
chem & mandarin. fcuk it.

2009-11-18T22:21:00.002+08:00

'the meaning of love is so abstract nobody knows the true definition of it. everyone has his or her own interpretations. all's not lost, it's only time that is lost. i'm sure you'll find someone who truly treasures you. :)'

'the hardest part is to explain to yourself :it's over. when you handle it then there's hope to move on..'

Remember the times when you got really heart broken?
When you want to get up but you couldn't?
When you want to forget and you couldn't?
when you know you gotta move on you couldn't.

Btw,
papers today aren't as tough as i thought ;)

2009-11-17T22:30:00.002+08:00

SPM PLEASE LOVE ME WITH ALL YOUR HEART.

I'll love you too.

Goodluck everyone.

15days to full freedom.

And sometimes it hurts when you say you're sorry and stuff.

2009-11-16T01:10:00.003+08:00

Btw, i really miss my straight hair ;(
And, miss MM too ;(
MISS DARL THE MOST ;(

I wanna wake up where you are.

2009-11-16T00:00:00.004+08:00

lelove.

Friday,
watched 2012. awesome? not really. But was okay. Happy ending though ;)
It does make people wonder what if 2012 is really true? what if the world is really coming to an end? what would you do? are you afraid? hahaaa.. i already told my baby Darl that he will have to marry me if the world really ends x) only if he remembers, doubt ;)
Had dinner at Kim Gary, the usual place. After that, bought a shirt from Kitschen, which i left it at Darl's house that night grr. Headed to AC then. Overnight at Darl's house with perkyang & siching. Slept at 4am ;)

Saturday,
perkyang & siching left before Darl wake up from bed. He is such a big baby ;( He took me home in the evening. Nobody was home at first, i watched Tv alone quite awhile, almost felt asleep. But then parents came back. I showered, and we went out for dinner at uncle Alvin's house ;) steamboat. Loads of seafood was served ;) was happy with it. All of them are mom and dad's really old & good friends, i think i know them too. After dinner, dad offered me whiskey lmao ;) haha, rare enough. They had brandy, whiskey, red wine and some korean wine there, of course i had them all ;) heh. Got home at 3 am.

Sunday,
pyramid again, with mom ;) objective was to shop. Had dinner at Bubba Gump. Bought a pants at Kitschen again ;) I had a tattoo on my back now x) wee.
Ohhh Uncle and aunt came for a visit today =] had dinner again with them. I had two dinners today xD hah.

Two days more to spm ;) goodluck friends.

Night Darl ;)

2009-11-11T22:58:00.004+08:00

BEFORE

AFTER.

yuck, i regretted la okayy ;(

I PERMED MY HAIR !

2009-11-10T22:09:00.003+08:00

I have short fringe and curled hair now, so not me. Totally new for me, 'cause I've never see myself with curled hair. Didnt know what went through my mind actually. It only looks nice when I tie it all up, my hair is still too short for it. Gonna wait til it gets longer ;)

OH YEAA, TO EVON ;

2009-11-10T03:11:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!

EVON THE CUTIE ;)

bffs ♥

love love love you ;)

May our friendship last forever
♥

2009-11-10T02:33:00.003+08:00

Phewww... finally done with editing and adding things to my blog. It's 2.34am. I'm tired, really. My eyes are heavy. I have school tomorrow, gosh.

I woke up this afternoon, it was around 2pm i guess.

The first thing i do was goin' on9. The second goes to brushing and cleaning.

I turned on the Tv later on, watched 'G to Gents'.. while i'm half way watching, Glenn called, but i know it was darl's idea. DUHH ;) because he THOUGHT he made me unhappy last night, so he was tyring to make it up to me by calling and driving me out to Asia cafe. I knew i was goin' to be bored somehow, but.. oh well he is trying. I'm still very happy to see him. He is still really sick, poor baby i pity him ;(

Reached there around 4pm, settled down and had tea.

FTZ for Dota again, there's when i'm starting to get boreddddd ;) i was only playing facebook.

An hour later, went upstairs to look for friends.

When we were planning to go back and went downstairs, I accidentally bumped into one of my ex-boyfriend. I call that unfortunate ;)

We changed our plan, and went upstairs once again. Darl played pool awhile. We were gonna have dinner with Glenn's mom.

I forgot what time it was, we had steamboat for dinner. It was nice ;)

After that, i went home with Darl and left Glenn and his mom.

I was worrying bout my Facebook-Cafe world, b'cause i knew my food was spoiling ;(

I left Darl at 1030pm. I went home.

Now, here I am.

---------------------------------------------------

I'm so sleepy right now, i'm goin' to bed.

Starting to miss my Darl already ;) Good night people.

OH btw, i made up my mind, that I'm not goin' to my schools' Prom Night.
But I'm goin' to Darl's Prom, hopefully ;)

2009-11-08T23:13:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was our anniversary, and... we just argued.

what the heck right. well it was a small issue, really. nothing big. Just misunderstanding and attitude problem + the mood swing wasn't right at all. I admit it was my fault. I just done my pms, but sceptically i'm still not in the mood. Not bout him, not bout anything. Just me, myself and I. You know girls right? pffft. we always have our own world.

I got back home arnd 10pm just now from pyramid. Had dinner at sakae, did some shopping. Owh i bought a shirt from Jaspal. *basically b'cause it's barbie ;) wanted to do a tattoo on my back, but was in a hurry and i don't know why is it. well, anyone wanna join me? ;) nvm ping i'll call you hahaa x) just want a companion not forcing you to do with me lmao.

Had a small argument with dad. Which makes my bad mood even worse. And just because i forgot to turn on that dumb Tv hhmph. Climacteric, men version.

Skipping school tomorrow again.

Countdown 10 more days til the battle begins.

haha, like i cared.

nights peeps, hearts.

Although, you're like ubi kayu sucked at comforting while i'm crying, i still love you as much as always ;)

2009-11-07T23:58:00.008+08:00

You were the one, came by my side when I've nobody but myself. I always remember that moment, because you were obsessed with me ;)

I was hopeless months ago, really, only bout love life of course. I got heart broken, somehow it was really hurtful at that very moment. Though i thought it was worth it to let things go, and yes it worth everything even to get my own life back to normal. But somehow, again, i felt like i got abandoned. I made a huge mistake, if you're my friend you would know what I'm talking bout. It was a big mistake. 7 months, you imagine, you carried that mistake for 7 months and you didn't do anything bout it but to let it carry on. I felt guilt. I regretted. My heart got scattered all over.

But him, put them all back together again.

Me and him. Our first met wasn't romantic. It was not a love at first sight moment. It was simple. I knew him at a karaoke room, and I was invited over by a good friend of mine. I didn't know anyone there. We started talking and stuff, i ninja-ed his beer and i still remember ;p After that outing later on, we started msging each other, phone calls at night, hanging out once or twice in a week. It was normal.

And something happened in between. Another guy was involved, he takes me out almost every night, treats me so good that i couldn't resist. people arnd me could see that he is only trying to take advantages from me, they warned me. I didn't listen. Because they were right bout me. All i was thinking bout is fun, late nights outing. I didn't care much people arnd me. Until i was too late to realise everything. He loved the other girl. and i know it all along. I was selfish and foolish. So, i came to realisation and break everything off with him. he became just a mist to me, a memory that i would rather forget. I told my first guy bout everything he did to me. Amazingly he listened to what i have to say, comfort me and advised me. Because at that moment, he was still crazy bout me. I choose to ignore whenever he try to confess. I wasn't ready.

He was so dedicated, so kind and gentle, and amazingly patient with me. And my love for him started with a kiss, a deep one. Maybe i didn't have the feeling that he didn't want it, i was aggressive. That time i know, i needed him. My feelings intensified. He was a boy that i was deeply in like with. Things got better as the days counted. Our feelings got stronger by then. Hard to admit, we were like a bond. Inseparable. But after all i never had the guts to tell him how i really felt all those times. But eventually i came to realise, all those complicated feelings i had for him could be express through simple words, which is I Love You. It explains it all. I was madly and deeply in love with him.

Eventually after months and days, we got official. Now.
(it's not the whole story, 'cause i skipped parts. well, the point is we are happily ever after.)

And before the time hits 12,

I gotta say,

HAPPY 1ST ANNIVERSARY, sweetie ;')

2009-11-04T21:01:00.006+08:00

Somehow, you were the one grabbed me as i fall.

Somehow, you were the one cheering me up everysingleday as i'm once upset bout love and life.

Somehow, you brought back my smiles, my laughters. I thank you.

Somehow, you were the one who is ohsoloyal to the so called love you had for me.

Somehow, you were the one looked & smiled as i fall asleep infront of my notebook while we were webcamming each other late night.

Somehow, you were the one accompanied me through the night when i needa finished up my assigments urgently.

Somehow, you once appreciated my presence in your life.

Somehow, you were once my best friend.

Somehow, we lost contact.

And yes, when you see this, you'll probably feel it probably not, and you know who you are. I guessed.
I didn't forget you really, whether you believe it or not.
I'm sorry, i did appreciate for what you did few months ago.
You were my soulmate.

2009-11-01T00:34:00.003+08:00

It's already november ;')
heck.

what have i been doin lately?
aiks.

Effeminate.

2009-10-29T23:01:00.003+08:00

Alright, i'm just missing him too much

2009-10-29T22:11:00.002+08:00

Double-u.Tee.Efff~

Btw, my shoot not bad aite ;)

2009-10-28T23:19:00.005+08:00

When i was so lost out there, i didn't know what to do.

I was hopeless.

I tried to look out for you,

And you weren't there.

I was alone,

And you weren't there.

I felt needles in my heart,

I was in pain,

And you weren't there.

My tears rolled down on my cheeks,

I shivered,

I was scared,

And you weren't there.

And when i miss you,

Now, you aren't here too.

2009-10-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

Life's a gamble it's not fair.

AT ALL.

2009-10-26T21:39:00.005+08:00

私は愛する
♥

只是当又一个人看海

回头才发现你不在

留下我迂回的徘徊

我不是一定要你回来

只是当又把回忆翻开

除了你之外的空白

还有谁能来教我爱

2009-10-25T22:51:00.003+08:00

Cry, because i didn't know that you really do cherish and love me very much.

Just that you do not show it everytime, or you didn't know how to.

Upset, because i was relying on you too much til i'm afraid that one day you get irritated by my face, and i'll loose you so.

I couldn't promise you faith,

I wouldn't promise you eternity,

but as long as it takes,

I'll always be there for you whenever you need me.

I'll always stand by you whenever and forever.

I just got home from darl's house.

had dinner with mom, at mamak ._. before heading straight back home.

watched darl sleep last night, which mean i couldn't and didn't sleep much.

Keeping him warm is what i do.

I woke him up this morning, because he's suppose to be having seminar at 9am.

BUT, he went straight back to bed after me shaking and waking him up.

Worse, he couldn't remember anything (maybe part of it) when he's fully awake (not so).

Ahhh well ;)

It's 11.51pm right now.

And he is watching football at home, while i'm still here blogging.

Anyways ;) i love him.

nights ;)

2009-10-24T12:09:00.004+08:00

This feeling, came back to me after a year.

it's when you thought ' ohh, i finally found a shoulder to lay on when im sad, when i cry, or whenever i need it, that person i love surely will be happy to give in ' , on second thought, it's all a lie, b'cause in the end you gotta face it yourself, crying under the blaket, even backstreets or staircases helplessly. no one there to hug you, or say something sweet to cheer you up, pat your head gently, smiling to tell you don't cry.
.
friendship was a fake thing, ppl say friendship last forever, bullshyt! they betray friendship for love, they choose love over friendship. even if its how many years we have been through, obstacles,climbs,problems, so what, they betray you for a 3 months old bf/gf. is this call friends for life? when you vow that you'll never leave them apart? you tell me.
.
baby, sorry for my bad temper. the fact is, i couldn't change who im not.
i told you i don't like to change for others, they are suppose to love who i m really.
the truth is, i've tried changing, and i couldn't. i failed.
is just, i am who i am.
nothing can ever change that.
.
.

I still love you.

2009-10-23T19:55:00.004+08:00

I promise my heart, i will never forgive you.

。

妳谁也不能怪，要怪就怪妳自己。

朋友，这两个字眼也可以这么敷衍。

如果不是因为妳女朋友，妳觉得我们会带她出来吗？

用妳的人头猪脑想一下，

不要有枪就乱射人，

请，妳也会讲妳自己21岁，作风一点也不像。

妳以为妳很成熟？

这就可以帮别人做决定？

是妳女朋友又怎样？

难道她自己没脑？

妳以为妳是谁？

我是不是应该向妳道谢，因为妳成功搞破坏？

我恨不得妳离她千里之外！

妳连真相都搞不懂，凭什么批评我妈？

妳说不介意我讨厌妳对吗？

恭喜，妳做到了。

我不只讨厌妳，

还非常恨妳，

恨妳恨得入皮入肉入血入骨。

妳错就错在不懂自己错什么，

还觉得很理所当然。

。

一点礼貌尊重礼仪廉耻都没有。

我呸！！

。

2009-10-18T22:09:00.005+08:00

Watched [ Pandorum ] this afternoon, at midvalley.
movie was okayy.

Currently at ftz. waiting biie to finish dota, and glenn too of course.
Yea kinda bored though. OH WELL ;)

continued--- ;D

That night,

after they done dota-ing, waited for siching to drive us to kelvin's house.

Fetched kelvin out to yumcha.

nothing much. ahhh camhored with him hahaa.

gotta wait him to send me those pics =]

crapped alot, yadayadaa...

got home arnd 1am.

tired, yes i guess.

slept til the next afternoon.

2009-10-17T17:20:00.003+08:00

current time---

5.20pm

yes,
writen by me.

see my pen there.

lyrics from --- already gone[kelly clarkson]

love love that song.

2009-10-16T02:39:00.005+08:00

A sohlou came to my house's play ground middle of the night just to make this for me.
Btw, those are candles =]
Freaking manis giler okayy~♥

But, 5 mins later--- all gone. hahaa.

.
.
.
Thank you for everything.
You made my midnight.♥

FYI, I DON'T REMEMBER WHAT WAS I ANGRY BOUT.

ahh, anyways ;)

somehow, feel so depressing.

2009-10-15T22:50:00.003+08:00

I always make the same mistake.
I know it sounds so annoying and irritating, cause we never really learn from the mistakes we made. And all we know is just talking and repeating bout it over and over again. I always ignored the ones who really care for me, cause, i admit i always go for the ones who entertain me. And yes all i want is attention. i know it sucks, feeling somebody you care is ignoring you and having fun the other side. But heyy, no one can blame no one. I often feel so suckish til i just wanna grab a knife and stab myself or just walk out the road and get bang by a car. And yea these feelings never go away. I'm often emotional, i can get jealous real easily or get upset with silly stupid things. I've been keeping the other part of me to myself, only my best friends have seen. If anyone you think you know me well, think twice. 'cause sometimes, i'm not who i fully am.

They say, face it even when things turned out ugly. I hear myself repeating it thousands and millions of times. And now i'm abit tired of repeating it again. I never fear to stand by, never thought of running away reality, but now, on second thought, i just feel like running away and hide somewhere i belong.

But, where do i belong?

I'm gonna private my blog again. sooner or later.
I don't want my living life to be expose anymore.

Always foolish and somehow selfish.
Yes.

[ Ciaos ]

Addition--- { 11.32pm }

brain freeze.

2009-10-13T01:15:00.003+08:00

It's currently 1.15am now.
And Somehow, my heart got interupted.

I know you love me too much to even see me get abit of pain =]
Deep down, i'm glad that i got you with me.

well, im goin' to bed now.
headache.

nights.

2009-10-13T00:56:00.007+08:00

Friday night --- after AC, oneU-Mardigras.

Glenn ---

Vain ;D i know.

2009-10-08T22:49:00.003+08:00

Lovely ain't they? ;)

all together ♥

2009-10-07T23:30:00.002+08:00

lynn's production

[my name on the mirror.]

yeesam's new phone x]]

he lanci d xd

dinner with mom and him.
[he crapping with my mom.]

[he driving us home ;]]

see those flowers ;3

Thank you darling ♥
For doing all these

2009-10-05T22:53:00.001+08:00

I didn't get to play lanterns and candles during The Mooncake Festival D;

how pathetic T^T

2009-10-05T21:15:00.000+08:00

I don't know why i got angry when you tell me you got to go.